Ladies, it’s time for some real talk.
I despise how social media is utilized as a highlight reel of our lives. Life is not a compilation of good selfies, good angles, and good captions; life is a compilation of moments of confidence and moments of self-doubt...
And today was a self-doubt day for me.
Today was a day that I was terrified to let my boyfriend go swimming with a group that included a girl that likes him. I know, I sound ridiculous but I felt helpless and out of control. I didn’t want him put in a compromising situation without me being there. But I sat and listened to what my heart was telling me, “I am trying not to be insecure and anxious but I am still plagued with restlessness,” “I want to trust in him, but I just can’t.” I realized that this was not my heart speaking, but it was lies that were instilled during my middle school years; lies that whispered “you’re not good enough,” “there will always be someone prettier than you, someone with a better body and bigger boobs,” but is that what God says about me? Absolutely not! God tells me that “I am fearfully and wonderfully made,” I am compassionate and nurturing and intelligent and brave and beautiful! When I combated these lies and refuted them with truths, I found that I was much calmer and confident in who I was.
So the next time you are self-loathing or self-doubting, write your lies down and below them, write the truths because I can assure you that whatever it is you are telling yourself in hatred today, it’s 100% false.