can you tell i take my Trauma Heart Heal blend most places?! the plus side to being an herbalist (well one of them) is that i just fill up the empty bottles when needed and wow have i gone through so many ounces of this one.
tomorrow is that commercial holiday for love and i do love love (or its potential) so part of me loves valentine’s day too, even tho its such consumerist nonsense in many ways. and yeah love can be revolutionary, can feel like home, can be so sweet and supportive but sometimes home is a place of grief and so, love is too. the shadow of love is that we all carry so much heart ache and break and even when we are “in love” with partners/ friends/ family, there is also so much grief that swims alongside. love lost, love beyond repair, love that did exist but is now different, love that harms, love that is a rupture, a breaking. it’s easy to wish that love alone can solve all the problems, personal and institutional and cultural. “all we need is love” or “love is the answer” are such common refrains. and yet, we all need so much more than love too. or we need to remember that maybe the love we were given as children, the love that shapes what we know love to be, isn’t quite right and so we gotta relearn, make new. do the thing we’ve never done in hopes of finding more ease. i’ve been moving through that a lot lately... how to love in a way that is better than the love i’ve been given, the way i’ve loved in the past. the love i learned about as a child that was sweet and good at times, sure, but that was rife with harm and obligation and guilt and expectation too still reverberates in me. so remedies like this one help to hold me in the complexity of it all, to slow down, and remind me to love myself first.
hawthorn, motherwort, rose, carnelian & rose quartz essences, brandy, raw organic honey
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