I have 2 physical scars because of myositis, technically 4, but I count 3 of them as one, as I can cover them all with my thumb, they were left there by my first PICC line, you can scroll across for a picture of it, it looks like a birds footprint.
I want to talk about scars you can't see, as for my college project I decided to look at some old diaries. .
Looking back I know I have been through a lot, possibly more than the average English teen girl, nearly died twice, severely ill, been in great Ormond Street, plus other stuff not health related including severe bullying and something that warrented a police investigation that the effects of didn't hit me until long after. All these things leave scars, but noone can see them on your skin. These scars can only be seen by you, and anyone you let see them, and they can shape you.
Being ill has left some of these scars, but other things have left many too. They aren't a bad thing, they show I survived, but some days they're hard to live with. Scar tissue is stronger and tougher than normal tissue though, and in the same way my invisible scars make me stronger.
My this is me project has been bringing up a lot of memories and thoughts of the past, I am still unsure what I want to and don't want to include, but I want to be honest. My scars and my experiences have changed me, and I always tried to not let them, but everyone changes, it's just whether they change you for the better or worse that you have to work on.