day 6. match of death! How do you play and what needs to transform asap to change the relationship interactions in your life? As you can see by this picture I just mind my own business and all these people just be shooting at me all the time. Ha! Although this is sometimes how I see the world; I can't be the problem, it's everyone else, of course.
Truthfully, though, let me delve into detail with the way I play ping-pong with my husband as he is who I spend most of my time and interactions with. I am always on the offense and I always want to win. I am quick to assume and think something negative even though I am the eternal optimist in the relationship. I get frustrated when I don't get what I want or if he doesn't pick up on what I want without me telling him. I feel like it doesn't mean as much if I have to tell him what to do rather than him seeing or thinking of me without the prompting.
I do not have a nice tone of voice and I know I give off a negative body language. I have 'angry eyebrows' he says. I guess?
The areas of conflict in the 'game' are some underlying tally of who's doing what and who did more, who's turn it is, etc. I have no idea how this came to be, I'm hoping to uncover more in this challenge or attend @ sessions after this. I don't want to hold onto these or react the way that I do with my daily interactions with the people I love the most.
Did this come from my childhood? Did I see my parents act like this when I was growing up? Does this come from my naturally competitive nature? How did I come to be naturally competitive? I can't seem to break into this one. I had to do a lot for other people and my family growing up and I felt like it was never about me, maybe when I became more independent I could finally let it just be all about me. I can tell you that it's hard to be in a relationship with that attitude: I can do whatever I want and you can only do whatever I say you can and you don't get to tell me what to do.
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