HAPPY FRIHIGHDAY 😂🙏
How many of you have a ride or die BFF? I haven’t had a BEST friend since after high school UNTIL this last year when this fuckin beauty @egorbani and I finally had the opportunity to hang out more which has been amazing💚💚 love you babes ! And I’m holding onto this one 👌🏻
When I first was going through the beginning stages of my illness I was put on 4 different kinds of anxiety/depression meds, 6 different pharmaceuticals for pain and anti spazmotic “medicine” and it was all the wrong doses so I actually had a mental break and landed myself in the psychiatric ward of the hospital here for a week and 5 days. I had a best friend at that point, we were dating brothers and once I got home from the hospital I was stilll miserable and decided to break up with him.. 😊which as you could imagine started some turmoil between all of us. So I avoided everyone or at least tried to and turned to other friends ..partying friends (I told y’all I was a party girl) and ended up doing some mdma and coke while out and missed my time to hang out with my best friend the next day. She cut off all contact with me saying “she couldn’t watch me not make a healthy effort to stabilize myself or my sanity” an it almost killed me. I lost all my friends at once as we were a tight knit group, BUT I made new friends and was able to start changing my life& self into someone I was proud of.
Which in turn helped my depression SO MUCH.
Your support system is SO IMPORTANT when going through any sort of mental illness. Environment is a huge factor as well.
I guess the point of this post is that people are going to come in and out of your life and you might not understand the reason until many many years later..but everything on this planet happens for a reason. I truly believe I went thru this so I can tell my story to the world,mental health is important, Manic episodes are real. I believe I lost all my friends in order to make me into a strong independent human that is able to survive on my own. (I couldn’t even go the bathroom in public alone before lol 😂) & to make room for all the amazing people I’m surrounded by now 🙏 protect your energy fam & trust in the universe