April 11th 2015 #Throwback 💜 I remember this day ever so vividly. I rarely left the Ashram to go into town, aside from walking up the mountains to the waterfalls. I was so mesmerised as soon as I arrived in India, Rishikesh in particular. It felt like coming home, after feeling so misplaced for so long. There it was, this little place filled with so much magic, that you could feel it in the air. There was the calm I was searching for. I found it within myself, in India. On the way back from town I stopped by the older man Raj who had a small stall selling mala beads made by his wife, and fruit. After Meditation and Yoga every morning, I would walk over to his little stall which wasn't too far from the Ashram to buy an orange and a pomegranate, and deliver Raj a chai. We would sit for some time, chatting. Him in Hindi, me in English. Although our words possibly didn't connect with what was said to one another, our Souls did. This was the furthest I'd go from the Ashram. On this day I visited him on the way back from town. I delivered him a chai, bought my orange and pomegranate, and sat on the crate to have a chat. This was the first time I heard him speak a word of English. As he placed a Bindi on my Ajna Chakra, he said, "You accept change, you grow. The Gods send you best love. You special". A tear rolled down my cheek. This older man, once a stranger, yet his presence ever so familiar. It was the words that I seeked from those closest to me, that I never got. The words that he gifted me with. They made me realise that I didn't need anyone to gift me with words of comfort. That I, within myself, could give that to myself. Nobody could take that away from me. 💫
This picture brings me great happiness. During a transition in my life, where I was picking up those little shattered pieces of myself, and slowly glueing them back together. Beginning to not need to fill the cracks within myself, beginning to accept the cracks as open spaces for all that I have now to enter.
Sometimes when we are in a certain moment in life, a moment that seems painful, it is hard to understand and believe that everything is working in Divine order.
When we believe we receive. 🌱