Last week was rough. Probably one of the roughest I have had in a few years. I don't know if it was postpartum depression hitting me, sleep deprivation, stress, or all of the above. But I definitely was not myself. To the point where I was getting a little concerned. I've been in that place once before and it was scary. It's hard to describe your lowest of lows. It's dark. It's lonely. It's frustrating. It's terrifying at times.
This weekend we went away for a family reunion and thankfully, I was able to have a great conversation with my sister in-law who taught me so much. Our conversation was exactly what I needed.
Another sister in-law took this picture of me and I am grateful for it. It was when I was finally feeling better. I had a weight lifted off of me and I could sit by the pool, snuggling my baby, and watching my other kids having the time of their lives without worrying about things that I had zero control over.
I am thankful for a loving and forgiving Heavenly Father, who knows what we need, when we need it. I learned things this weekend that I would not have been ready to learn even a month ago. Humility, forgiveness, repentance, growth, change, grace, mercy- they are all so real and so necessary to make a daily part of our lives.
I am ready to work on being a better version of me. A better mother, wife, friend, sister, daughter, neighbor, human being. Here's to tomorrow being a new day full of new opportunities to learn, grow, change, and be patient with myself.
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