It is June 1st; the month of #pride🌈. This is the year I embrace me; all of me. Welcome to the world Badger Solfire, a radical faerie f*gg*t! Haha! Also my stuffed friend Tad; they are a faerie too.😉
Pride is complicated for me. I have never had the chance to go to a parade or a festival and this year I will not either... Where I still live I am not able to be out. I am hoping with my Master's degree and the couple interviews I have gone on that I will be stable and be able to live as my authentic self. I still feel so limited by my family... For me identity has always been confusing. I am a queer male, genderqueer, a radical faerie, a rural fag; I am queer as fuck. Reconciling all my separate identities has always been difficult for me. Being rural and queer is hard. Queer folx think you have to be urban to be queer, and rural folks think you can't be queer and rural. Then add in there my queer gender and my love of playing dress-up and things get complicated. Sexual I know I am into kink😈 and that makes things even more complicated.
I honestly never know how to reconcile all my identities into one being and express them all. I experience a high level of isolation because who I am does not seem like a person that can exist. But I love me. I love my body. I love my gender. I love my gender expression and the way I play with it combining the masculine and the feminine. I love my sexuality and my kinky (leather) desires. I love me. I am proud of me. I hope one day to find folx, especially one special guy, who will be able to love and embrace me, all of me. The last major thing for me to conquer, which I hope to do in the next year, is unlocking my sexual desires. Hoping to find a guide into the world of leather and kink. My pride goal for the year... I hope all my Brothers, Sisters, and everybody in-between have a happy pride!
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