Yes, I have been there.
The feeling of disconnection to all that surrounds me, including me.
The dis-ease after dis-ease, no compass to guide me, feeling lost, abandoned, rejected, left out in the cold, & weak.
The feeling of desperation, the longing for something or someone to fill up my chalice, to show me real love, to show me the way. 🌹
After years of being in service to the wounded masculine and letting the masculine use my womb as a repair shop for their trauma and pain and suffering, The dark goddess within me rose from the dead and said NO MORE.
She reminded me of my true nature, and told me that I could rewrite a new story if I wasn’t satisfied with the old one.
The wise elders say that all scars and wounds are the doorway to ones healing and awakening.
I remember knocking loud as fuck on all of these doors - looking for the answers to all of my pain, sorrow, grief, anger, resentment, + bitterness.
Why do I constantly show up for others that do not show up for me?
Why do I constantly love + nurture others more than I love + nurture myself? ..these questions..
So irrelevant. Not getting anywhere. Still hurting. Still blaming. Still bitter.
How can I put me first now?
How can I show up for myself like I have for others?
How can I give all of this energy and love back to me!!!? ..these questions..
lightbulb flickers on. Mic drops. AHA moment sinks deep within.
I N H A L E
E X H A L E
These scars.. these wounds.. I look into them with DEEP love and reverence for all of the lessons disguised as blessings. For the journey that brought me here today, feeling badass, LIT, embodied, + completely filled.
Recently, I’ve noticed many of these old past wounds resurfacing - triggering the hell out of me and my beloved.
The work is never over, please remember that.
When these wounds come back to test and trigger, this is the real work..
Are we going to return to the old ways of being?
Or are we going to meet and greet ourselves with more love and compassion and acceptance?
Truly holding ourselves in whatever wound that wants to resurface for our attention + care. — Rose Womb Activation with @