Today, I can’t help but reflect on my journey with our second born. Even though she is just 11 weeks old, she has taught me so many things. She has changed me as a person. My whole life I have planned things out and made them happen. I controlled everything in my life and thought I could do it on my own, and did. I always needed everything perfect and made sure it was. I never opened up to anyone or let anyone help me. I had life set.
Miss Ellie’s diagnosis was 50/50 all through my pregnancy. She had such little signs that they couldn’t confirm anything. On the day of her birth, we found out within minutes. I loved her from first sight and saw the fight in her eyes. Just like my whole pregnancy, she passed every test in the hosptial and they could not find anything wrong with her. In fact, all she had was an extra chromosome and needed a little oxygen support.
From the day of delivery, Ellie taught me it was ok to reach out for support. Her birth allowed me to lean on others which was all new to me. She showed me that I didn’t need to have everything perfectly planned out and how good it can be when I don’t have full control of everything. Ellie was perfect from the day we first heard her heart beat. She has helped me to open up to others and share our story in hopes of helping other moms just like me. Today and everyday I am so thankful for this little girl. I am thankful she is mine and that I was chosen to be her mom. She amazes me each and everyday with her will to beat the odds of her diagnosis.
If she has already taught me so much at just shy of 3 months old, I am so excited to see the person I become because I’m her mom. She’s not done teaching me and I know God has a plan for her.