that October F U N K 🙄
It's something I have dealt with for as long as I can remember, up until about two years ago. Seasonal depression has knocked me off my feet, made me miss out on so many amazing things that autumn has to offer, and caused me to retreat in fear from life during this time.
But the past couple years, I changed something. I took away that anticipation. The all-consuming worry that fuels me during this time. I instead replaced it with being kinder to myself. I work my year around making sure that October/November doesn't stress me out any more than it needs to. I keep my calendar open and make time for anything and everything that makes me happy. I go easy on myself, and just meet ME where I'm at. It's completely changed my life. Instead of pushing through and loading myself up with to-do's (which is very typical for this time of year), I slow down. I take naps when I need to, plan easy trips, read books, spend more time with family, make my priorities really small and specific, and embrace the art of slow. I still feel that scary depression creeping in and wanting to pull me under, but instead of fighting it I embrace it as a feeling and nothing more. It sits on the edge of the water now, watching me as I dive in without it. And that's a beautiful feeling.
It's caused me to do a complete 360 on Octobers and realize that they too can be joyful, it's all about the way I see it. 📸by @.plews (who's getting pretty amazing at the camera work)