Taehyung has been dealing with anxiety for quite some time so he was usually used to feeling like everything is going to shatter at any second.
Ever since he fell in love and found the comfort in his boyfriend, Jungkook, he started to feel better; secure. It was as if he was his protection; just something that made him feel like there isn’t a single dangerous thing in the world.
He felt like he cant be safer than around Jungkook. He knew he would save him if anything happened; he knew he would do anything in his force to comfort him.
But he never told him about what he’s suffered from before they became a thing, which he regretted on this certain day.
He started to feel a little worse recently, which he couldnt explain himslef, but he realized something was wrong with him when he woke up that morning in an empty bed and finding only the attempt to get up like a task he could never master.
He shook off the weird feeling building up in his stomach and forced himself to get ready. Everything felt harder for him that day; every move, every breath felt as if there was another stone added to the weight on his chest.
But he didnt have another choice than make it through the day, he had to do the usual things, even when they’re against his mental state.
Bangtan was attending an interview that day, which would’ve usually been something Taehyung could easily get through, but that day he felt like he couldnt take one more thing. Everything around him, every unique voice, every noise, every breath, every movement disturbed him. It disturbed him to the point where it overwhelmed him and he only wanted to leave; go back home or lock himself in a quiet room, but he couldnt.
He was there, backstage, waiting for it all to begin while his makeup got fixed. He went through the interview. He collected all of his strength and went through it, though it was hell. Taehyung was a social butterfly, we know that, but suddenly he was scared; scared of those humans, scared they might think horribly of him, talk to him or even hurt him. As soon as the interview was over, he rushed into the washroom and gave in to the tears that have been building up inside of him.