A year ago, when I started working out again I was doing it because I needed to loose weight. I was down and so hard on myself, flash forward to the present, It’s more about everything else. The gym time is soo much more to me than just that. I need it for my emotional well being too. I work in a rather hostile, quite negative environment. I goto the gym during my 12.75 hour shift, either for my lunch or dinner break. When I’m working out, it is solely ‘me’ time. I haven’t been able to do this at home as my children think all our time is devoted to them, if I try to do something on my own accord, it ends up becoming too stressful. I’ve found that working out at work is the most favourable time for me. I get rejuvenated. If I’m feeling tired, sick, lacking energy, emotionally drained or in a negative frame of mind, working out resets everything! Right now, I’m cold cuz of the weather and I warm up afterwards 🙂I concentrate on myself, on what I’m doing, what I’m hoping to achieve for those few minutes and I walk away elevated. I work on myself, pushing myself further, harder, to keep going. I forget about work, about being a mom or wife, it’s just me, myself and I.
It’s not about being skinny. Yes, I want to be toned and healthy. I wish I could say I’m in love with my body, I sure am grateful for it - what it’s allowed me to do in all of these years! I have come a long ways from just a year ago, I definitely feel more comfortable in it. I’m beginning to remind myself that it created my beautiful babies. I can not blame them for what happened to my body, they are not at fault! No one is, this is just a part of human nature. Unfortunately media has covered it up and has us all thinking it’s shameful. I have grown and nursed two babies with my body, I was their home, their sole source of food, I pushed them both out of me! Of course I’m never going to look the same and that is now ok with me! That should be enough! I’m becoming stronger not just physically but mentally too.