23102018 2120 Before Hope
The waiting began, like the suspense of not knowing your eternal end. As the clock ticked with each minute, my heart faltered, beating more than I could bare. Finally, the nurse called, "Mrs Sadiq Alqasim?" I answered abruptly, hearing my name. I barely heard my voice, as it choked me. My "yes" sounding like a cat's life being taken. My hands trembled as I collected the piece of envelope from her hands. She smiled, leaving me without a word. Hurriedly, I pocketed the envelope in my bag pocket and left the hospital. Fearing that if I should perhaps open it there, the fates might not do me justice. However, deep within me, I knew the startling truth, the deep cutting truth and I just couldn't face it. "I can't." I whispered in silence to myself as I walked out the hospital gate.
A few minutes passed me by, just standing on the road, staring into nothing as my heart kept plummeting in my mouth. A reality I can't face hunting me into oblivion. Passers by stared, wondering what was wrong but none stopped to ask. Leaving their own thoughts and conclusions to mind.
A tricycle stopped. "Malama tahiya ne?" He asked. His question brought me out of my trance. My mind slowly returning to me. "Jan Blo, new side." I said. Without bargaining, I entered and sat. He drove without asking questions. I once again got lost in my thoughts. Another passenger entered, a lady. Her child wouldn't stop crying. She tried every possible remedy but none would work. "Kunji shegen yaro. Kaita wa mutun kukan banza." She scolded, obviously tired of his ranting.
I was shocked by this, contemplating if to interfere or not. "Ki bashi nono mana kilan zaiyi shiru." I recommended.
She turned abruptly, as if just realising there was someone else in the tricycle with her. "Wannan yaron? Ki barsa kawai. Sai shegen son kuka ba gaira ba dalili." She fumed.