Things I’m learning: -That’s it ok to be ME. I don’t have to change who I am to make other people happy. If someone doesn’t like me, that’s ok. Other people’s opinion of me is none of my business anyway @msrachelhollis I want to surround myself with people who genuinely like me for who I am, flaws and all, and want to spend time with me. Everyone else is a waste of my time...and theirs. -That I don’t have to follow the crowd. I can be an original and I can (and should) do what makes ME happy. I’m learning to get over my FOMO, to do what works for me and me alone. And yes, I’m still figuring out what that is...and that’s ok! My journey is MINE & I’m the only one who needs to approve of it.
-That I am enough. This is something I struggle with daily but I’m trying hard to accept it, to embrace it, and to accept it as truth. -That breaking up with sugar is HARD! Like, really hard. Right now I don’t think I’m capable of having a good relationship with it. It’s all or nothing. And I need to be ok with nothing until I know I can be ok with some. One day I hope to get there. -That getting back up when I fall is my only option if I want to grow. It’s my failures that make me stronger and teach me the important lessons. Lessons like not giving up. Lessons like how to give myself grace and how to forgive myself. Lessons like there is no growth without failure. That hard things are worth fighting for and that nothing good comes easy. That’s it’s ok to be vulnerable, and to struggle, and to need to ask for help...and more importantly to accept help when it’s offered. -That I am a work in progress. That I am not too old to make changes. That it’s never to late to change your life. Every day is a chance for a fresh start and it’s what we do with that chance that makes all the difference.
So today, I am embracing all the things above and practicing grace, and gratitude, and love, and patience. And I wish the same for all of you ❤️
I’ve been spending a lot of time in my head these days. A lot of time looking back. Even more time looking forward.
I’m participating in @msrachelhollis#last90days and it’s really making me think. It’s pushing me out of my everyday existence and making me ask important questions....like what does the best version of myself look like? What do I want out of my life? Do I want to be in the same place I am now 20 years from now? What truly makes me happy? What do I feel I was called to do with my life?
I’m working hard to find the answers to these questions....and others. To be honest with myself. I’m digging deep and spending time with my thoughts. Thoughts about being “enough” and what that even means. Thoughts about what makes me happy, truly happy, like down-to-my-core happy. About what it means to want more...that it’s not a bad thing or that wanting “more” means something is wrong with what I have and where I’m at. Thoughts about how I want to spend my time and who I want to spend it with (they say you become the 5 people you spend your time with). I’m trying to figure out where these thoughts are coming from...are they truth or some lie that someone told me once upon a time and that I just adopted as truth?
I feel like I’m beginning a new chapter and for the first time in a long time, I feel really excited about that. I’m excited to move forward, excited to shift my thoughts, excited to see how this story progresses.