I’ve been hiding something. I’ve been hard-core struggling the past couple months. With my nutrition, with my workouts, with my self confidence. I have let my healthy eating habits slide. Not so much when it comes to meals, those are still 95% on point. But I’ve allowed my sugar dragon to come back full force with a vengeance. I have been craving (and giving in to) sugar & sweets on a daily basis. I can’t seem to stop eating them even though I tell myself time & again that I don’t want it, it’s not good for me & it’s not worth it. My moods and workouts are suffering for it in a big way. I’m feeling exhausted and unmotivated more often than not. I’m moody, grouchy, easily angered & quick to see the worst in a situation. I’ve skipped a few workouts because I’m just too tired to get up & too unmotivated to care. Which leads to me feeling even more moody & grouchy. It’s a vicious cycle.
My body, and therefore my self confidence, are also suffering. I’m feeling a little fluffier than I was a couple months ago. I’m feeling a little more bloated than I had been. My skin has had breakouts.
I have also been questioning my current workout program...is it too hard, am I not good enough, is it right for me? Am I doing too much or not working hard enough, etc... If I change programs will people still follow me, will they still want to be my “friend”, will they still support me? What is it “I” really want?
I have tried many times over the past few weeks to “reset”, to “start over”, to tell myself “today is a new day”. In fact as I sit here writing this post, my coworker wants me to share a delicious smelling, cream cheese-loaded pastry from a local bakery. And I’m trying my best to say no, thank you, and MEAN IT!! 😖 Each day I have failed, fallen face first into some form of candy, cake or ice cream or a combination of all of the above.
But here’s the important thing....I keep trying. Yesterday morning I had a conversation with myself and I came to a few realizations.... ***continued in comments***