BA chapter 18 by ALB:
"ten minutes later i'm running up to my apartment and Jace is dialing up Luke. while i pack, Jace talks to Luke, for time to time i peak out the window to see how it's going one moment Jace is talking passionately his hand flying all over the place, the next his head drops
and he seems to have no words and i know why. me and Luke have discussed before what we would do if this situation ever presented itself (believe it or not it was his idea) and by how Jace looks Luke did exactly as i asked. i throw a few more things in a bag, turn the lights off grab my purse and rush down to Jace. i throw my stuff in the backseat and get back in the car, i'm buckling before he finally speaks. "what Luke told me," he pauses, taking a moment to put the words in the order that works best before continuing. "what he told... that's... that's what you wouldn't tell me over the phone when we first started talking?" Jace looks at me, the joy from the sidewalk is gone and replaced by hurt. i simply look down. i don't know what to say, i don't know how to tell him. "Is, please talk to me." his voice almost breaks but manages to stay together somehow, placing his hand on my cheek he turns my eyes to his. i think i'm about to speak when he whispers while looking deep into my eyes, "i understand why you wouldn't tell me over a phone Is, i'm not mad or hurt that you didn't, i wouldn't have either if i was you. i understand why four months was needed for me not to know, and for you to figure out how to tell me, okay?" i nod as the tears -that had been building since i saw his head drop from my apartment- begins to slide down my cheek. "hey," Jace whispers, as he opens he door and rushes around to mine opening it, pulling me to him, he begins to stroke my hair as i cry into his chest. "Hey, it's okay. it's okay Is. i'm here."
"i didn't know how to tell you." i say into his chest between breaths. i move to look at him and see there are tears building in his eyes too. "i'm sorry. i'm sorry that you found out from Luke but i'm more sorry that i'm glad i didn't have to tell you and that someone else did that for me." ⬇⬇